I’m back.

I didn’t mean to disappear for the last nine days. I’ve just had a lot on my mind. About my life, my future, my past mistakes, etc. and I haven’t felt like writing haven’t wanted this blog to turn into a pity party about everything that is wrong with the world. So I didn’t write.

I’ve also been trying to decide whether this blog should be dedicated only to my weight loss or to writing about other parts of my life.

It’s all connected, right?

My feelings of spirtual depravity, community frustration, and boredom tie directly into what I decide to put into my body. I do know this, but somehow I don’t want to write about this here. If I was being completely honest with you, I’d be ranting right now about how I am tired of pretending to be something that I am not. I’d be writing about feeling frustration with the fact that I feel like I have made some really bad decisions over the past couple of years that have sent my life on a path that I don’t want. I’d be writing about how I feel this country is going to hell in a hand basket, and how I feel like I can’t do anything about it.

But this is a weight loss blog. So, who wants to read about that? I have a blessed life. A life that many would envy. I have a kind, faithful husband who loves me dearly. A beautiful, bright, loving son. A great house. A job where I am respected. etc. How dare I whine about clothing sizes, missed opportunities, and credit card bills that I created? How dare I?

So, I won’t.

I have not stood on the scale in a while. On purpose. I’ve just wanted to focus on being healthier, and making my habits natural. I feel like I have been doing a good job. Of course, there is still room for improvement, but my clothes feel looser, my skin is clearer, and my cravings for ice cream are down. Making exercise a regular habit is still so hard for me. I don’t know whether it’s laziness or fatigue. I do know that if I keep doing what I am doing, I will lose weight. It will just take a long time. But didn’t the tortise win the race. This pace feels organic, but I want to be even better.

Today, on the way to work, I heard that the FDA approved the sale of cloned meat in the US. No labels will be put on the products to alert consumers. “Caveat Emptor“(Let the beware beware) has never rang truer.

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Inspired by a friend who has lost 30 pounds walking with the “walk away the pounds” dvd, I went out and purchased the 3 mile walk. I haven’t put in the dvd yet, but I plan to tonight. If I don’t exercise in the morning, I just won’t exercise. I plan to weigh myself on Saturday morning. I will post the results then.

I will also post some pics in the coming week.