Update: I just got finished walking for about 40 minutes! Now off to do 20 minutes of “PM Yoga.”

Well, I finally did it.
On yesterday, I finally put on my sneakers (or tennis shoes, as we used to call them growing up), put on my workout clothes, and went for a walk! (Is that applause that I hear? Thank you! Thank you!)

But, I had forgotten for a moment. “Forgotten what?” you ask? How out of shape I am! I started out walking like I was 80 pounds lighter than I am…My body quickly let me know that I was trippin’. So I slowed my behind D-O-W-N. I walked for 35 minutes. Walked around the “enclave” in my subdivision.

It felt good.

I felt like I was finally doing something right. The entire time that I walked, I envisioned myself 100 pounds lighter than I am now. I WILL LOSE THIS WEIGHT. Shoot, it’s only MATH, right? Eat less, exercise more. It’s all the emotions that come with our weight that makes it hard.

When I lost weight my freshman and sophomore years of college, I focused my attention on being healthy. That’s how I lost the weight. And that’s what I am doing now. It feels good to be thoughtful of what I am fueling my body with. I have had some slip-ups…that Coke Saturday night at the movie theatre…and a few other moments. But I am doing such more better. And I feel good! I am so proud of me! I know that I keep saying that, but I am.

Sometimes in life, we fall down. We stumble. We mess up. But a few years of being fat should not doom me to obesity for the rest of my life. And it won’t. I wish I would have accepted that in my life a few years ago.

I changed my weight loss goal. My weight loss goal used to be 155 pounds, even when the weight charts and doctor said I should weigh a bit less. But I resisted. Because I was afraid of what it would take to be 140 or 145 pounds. But I am afraid no longer. I want to know what it would be like to not be even the “littlest bit” “chunky”. I think I owe it to myself to try to work up to my “ideal weight.” To be the healthiest I can be. Why not?

My goal weight is 140 pounds. That will give me a little room to grow when we have another child (No time soon!). And G-d willing, I am going to get there!

Here are few thoughts/updates:

–Yoga in the morning?…Ain’t gon’ happen. But going to the YMCA will. For some reason, putting my behind on the floor in the morning, it’s not going so well. But driving to the Y for an early morning session on the treadmill is OK. Hey, if OPRAH can do it, so can I!
–No more eating directly out of bags…I eat too much when I do that!
–No more eating in front of the computer.
–I’ve been drinking lots more water. I pee alot. I forgot what it feels like to drink this much water.

I’m out to go WORK IT OUT!

Peace,
Mjaay